she sucks the shells off skittles

so much free time these past few days, but so little motivation... to exercise. to blog. to do anything, really. piddly cleaning, imaginary errands, and crap TV have filled the bloated minutes. i have watched my partner dissolve into his new iToy and i watched betty white's new show - hot in cleveland - the pilot was really good. hope to see more betty-heavy episodes to come.

it isn't often that the daily news truly affects and infiltrates my mind, but even thinking about the oil spill puts my stomach in knots. when i first heard of it - 70 fucking days ago - i feared it was going to be the ugliest thing this country has ever done to the planet, and it's turning out to be true. at first, the idea that this shit could be pouring into the gulf until august seemed impossible. now it is a certainty. at first, BP lied by claiming only 1,000 barrels were leaking a day. currently, we are accepting the lie that it is closer to 60,000 barrels, which means it is likely over 200,000 barrels in reality.

the scale of this disaster is beyond any coherent analogy, with news anchors claiming the oil slick is either the size of rhode island or alaska. whichever turns out to be true, this is going to destroy the region for years. one of the sickest little twists to this nightmare is how BP bought up the google search terms so that when you google "BP oil spill" or any variation of the terms, you get no useful results. as though there is no leak.

then why does everyone tell me i sound amazing?!

earlier this week, b decided that he needs to get an ipad. the giddy thoughts of fondling its prettiness make me need a new toy.

i can just hear the clamoring nerds stampeding to the apple store thursday for the release of iphone 4. it is damp-in-my-pants amazing. after patting myself on the back for a year for waiting to jump on the iwagon until the 3GS came out, now i cannot talk myself out of blowing another $300 for the new one.

the new OS will also be fab - folders for apps, multitasking, ibooks and more, but i can get that update on the 3GS. the new shape, size and apparent feel of iphone 4 intrigue, but hardly justify the purchase. the forward-facing camera which allows for video chatting is amazing, but will be very limited at first (only works with other iphone 4's - but someday will work with apps like skype).

perhaps the most amazing change is the processor. apple has always been hush-hush about the Samsung chip in the iphone, but this time they are showing it off. they are using the new customized apple-designed A4 chip, the same one that runs the ipad, but apparently in the phone it will be twice as fast. ok, the processor AND the display are the big sellers -- there will be 328 pixels per inch -- four times the pixels as the 3GS. blows every other smartphone display away. what is a nerd to do?

casserole of nonsense

one of the biggest questions in particle physics relates to the existence of matter. in a mathematically perfect universe, there would have been equal amounts of matter and antimatter created after the big bang, and they would have annihilated each other. there should be nothing everywhere. scientists don't know why the universe is composed of matter, and not its evil twin.

recently, a new clue to solving this mystery was announced. scientists at Fermilab's Tevatron, the largest particle collider in the US, discovered that muons, described as "fat electrons" might be the reason we are here. the reason we are really living.

they believe that after the big bang, neutral B-mesons, which switch back and forth between their matter and antimatter states trillions of times per second, and eventually decay to muons. because of the rate at which they alternate between the two states, they end up as matter more often than antimatter. that, not jebus, is the reason we are alive.

who cooks a musician at the height of her career?

could not be happier to have the school year done with. junior high school students - especially the boys -- are nightmares through and through, and they went way beyond proving that on the last day of school. not looking forward to the fall. so ready to dive headfirst into summer vacation. purging of stacks of crap in my basement is tedious project number one.

pictures help me learn. saw this in barcelona.

recent favorite quote - the older you get, the better you get. unless you're a banana.